Mental Illness//’#BellLetsTalk’

iYesterday, ‘Bell’, a mobile/television network provider in Canada had it’s supportive initiative about bringing awareness to everyone about the importance of recognizing Mental Illness in our society.

Mental Illness is hard to talk about. Not everyone knows when its happening, or knows what to do when it does happen. There’s a stigma around it, that makes it hard for everyone to be one about it. It is a sensitive matter, and at some point in life people will experience this, maybe not always to its full extent but it happens to a lot of people, every day. 

I personally can relate to this. I have battled depression at many points in my life. I say many points, because I feel like it went away, and came back at certain times for me. But depression doesn’t go away. It merely hides in the back burner, and catches up with you when you least expect it. 

Depression isn’t a thing that you sort of choose to be in. It kinda just takes over you, not choosy of any specific situations. It isn’t that you’re too weak, or inexperience in life that you get into a rut, it’s just sometimes mentally, you get really lost, in the feelings. And everything in the feels kinda just mesh, and you’re a lost soul–until you get help. 

When you struggle with depression, it’s hard for anyone else to help you, unless they’re truly educated about it. You become distant, you become isolated, and it gets hard to socialize. You lose friends, sometimes family members from being in it. 

It’s probably the hardest thing I ever had to go through. To feel alone, to feel lost, to feel like there’s no point in anything. 

Say too much, but none of it says anything

I don’t know if this is true of all Taurus’ signs, but apparently taurus’ tend to isolate themselves.

I relate to this. I’m not sure if thats due to the way my lifestyle is at the moment, but I find so much truth to that.

When Apollo was born, it was like a hermit was born of me. I didn’t want to be around people. I didn’t want to take Apollo out, afraid of sicknesses, and germs. I hated that other family members, wanted to be selfish about him too–he is MY son. 

J, and I never went out. We didn’t go out with our friends. We didn’t go on dates anymore, and if we did, we went out as a family. I don’t think it was that we didn’t want to go out with our friends because, they visited. I think it was more, we were uncertain if that was an acceptable thing to do even after you have kids. We assume, or at least I did, that your time, becomes dedicated to that little human you made. Everything surrounds his world, and not the other way around. 

Five and a half years later, Artemis came to be. Still we find ourselves, just, US. So much has drifted, and not just time. Friends, people have come, and gone. Even the ones I was so certain would stick it out have selfishly passed. Not everyone can tolerate friends with children, at least not all single people.

Perhaps, it isn’t that I’ve chosen to isolate myself, or that my life changing lifestyle is the reason. Perhaps, I’m just not accepting of people coming, and going. Perhaps, I just don’t want to keep losing people, and having to keep going through the same motion, the same emotion. I’m really not big on the feels. As much as I can share my thoughts through words, it’s as much feelings as I can express.

I’m a romantic, like that. 

TIME, definitely opens up truth in your life- about all aspects, really.

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