It’s been a little bit over a month, since I seen the doctor for the initial diagnosis of my postpartum depression and postpartum anxiety & OCD. I had met with him again just last Tuesday to see how the medication he’s prescribed is working for me. I had to refill that prescription for the second time, before seeing him again, since the month after visit went a bit over a month to get an appointment with him.
Here’s my update
- I still get a lot of down days
- I still get overwhelmed easily
- My anger is still uncontrollable
- My head still feels foggy
- I still have a hard time focusing
- I have a hard time remembering things
- I still can’t sleep at night
- My eating habbits are still outta whack (lost 10 lbs)
- Days when I feel super down, It’s really hard to snap out of it
- I feel unmotivated 50% of the time
But…
- I don’t cry as often
- I push myself harder to get out of bed, and actually get out of bed
- I’m learning to control being angry all the time
- I’m able to leave the house and run errands more than before
- I’m okay with seeing people again – just not for long periods of time
- I’ve learned to slow down on doing things and not finding it a burden to have to do it there and then
- I’m taking breaks
- I’m noticing better, when I’m burnt out
- My relationship with my son, is slowly getting better
The doctor has increased the dosage of the same medication he previously prescribed and advised me that in a month, if it still appears to not be working then he’ll either raise the dosage again, or change the medication.
Here’s thing about going through postpartum depression of any levels, it doesn’t matter what medication you take it will not get rid of it but just help you deal with it “better”. The professionals on this topic also advises to take some type of counselling. Whats happened in your past, is most likely a contributor to this sickness. All the pent-up emotions you did so well to hide, is what’s actually creeping out and attacking you. So talking to a professional counselor helps you determine part of the root of the problems that linger, that you’re not dealing with, but it doesn’t get rid of postpartum depression, or any other level of ppd. It takes time, it requires work, it requires motivation to get better, it requires for you, the individual itself to want to get better. It’s a journey. It’s a battle. It’s an experience, but you don’t have to become it. You can choose everything after it.
♥
Thank you for following my journey with Postpartum Depression/Anxiety & OCD. Your support has been wonderful. I am here for you, just as you are for me. Remember that it’s better to go through this with someone, than alone.
If you know anyone who appears to be going through something that sounds like postpartum depression, please listen. Please do not judge. Please be kind. If you need help, ask. If you don’t know what’s wrong, see your physician.
♥
MM, out!
I,Mommy 