Does Taking a Mental Health Day help for Individuals With PPD & PPA? 

I have been a ghost lately with writing, only keeping up with my social media platfoorms sharing specs of my day.

 

“I was merely taking a break and using my mental health day card.”

 

I can’t begin to tell you what it feels like to have fallen into the abyss. Like your soul stuck in the deep, half fighting to get out, looking for some kind of reason to save itself from falling time and time again. I had called it quits on writing, called it quits on connecting with others, networking with others, and just sharing how everything has been stirring in my pot of life.

The truth is, it started off as a ‘break’ and as time lapsed, it became harder and harder to find myself in the things I thought helped me with self-care. 

 

Then, life happened some more. J, had left for Mexico for another work trip lasting two and a half weeks. His return date was the weekend before our wedding. It made it that much harder to go back to my routine, when you have to be present for the kids ALL.THE.TIME. You get no breaks.

“No breaks to pee, no breaks to shower, no breaks to eat a full meal, no breaks!”

Thankfully, a couple of our friends came for Canada Day with their son, to help busy up my eldest, have some adult conversations for a weekend, and have some extra pair of hands for help. Oh was it helpful, indeed!

 

J, finally came home. He got half a day of rest and the next day we were off to Toronto, for our wedding. We would be spending nine days in total in Toronto, getting last minute stuff done, from baby shoes, to haircuts, to mani-pedi, to all the in-between; I lost energy to accomplish before the week of the wedding. The days before the weekend was spent hanging out with our best of friends, and soaking in the time we don’t usually have when we head back home to Toronto for a weekend. It was indeed a good time.

The day of the wedding came, it was beautiful in all of its glory. The ceremony had everyone in tears, including my middle-child who photobombed our kiss. But in all of its awesomeness, is the fact that J and I are officially married.

 

After the wedding, it was a quick jump to seeing houses to choose one to move to from our current. We went back to Toronto the weekend after our wedding to pick-up Apollo from his Grandparents house, since he insisted on staying after the wedding. That weekend, Artemis had been sick with a fever; cranky all weekend. We attended my cousins wedding, and it was back to Windsor. Artemis still cranky, eventually figuring out she has an ear infection, made it that much harder to get on with finding a new house.

The house we currently have is just absurdly huge for two short adults, and three midgets. J spends a lot of time away, leaving me to do the maintenance of the house and in it’s whole. Well it’s just too big to maintain alone, with three kids. Plus, the cost of our rent is up the bazooka. All the hard work J does makes it feel like more than half of what he takes home is rent. Obviously something had to give. So we ended up finding a big enough house to house our family of 5, but making it a little snug with visitors. It’s doable if you divide everyone per room, haha. So, the crazy of packing and moving slowly has commenced and were due to be out of our old rental and into the new one on Friday. The rush is only so we can make my brother-in-laws birthday this weekend, and because J leaves again on the 3rd. So moving on my own with three kids would be one that would send me to the looney bin.

My life seems to be on a serious roller coaster all the time. It’s become so consistent in falls, I’ve stopped getting that feeling you get in your tummy when you suddenly fall. I almost wish I was just stuck in between the fall and landing. Just sit there, as if I was waiting to be rescued from the technical issue.

 

“My one day mental health day, took a long ass daaay and let me tell you why.”

 

When you have PPD & PPA, it isn’t a matter of the moment you’re angry, or sad, or anxious and it goes away. You spend a long moment, sometimes lasting days feeling down, depressed, anxious, worried, in panic, angry and you cannot pin point the root of where it began and what triggered it. An easy day it seems, doesn’t feel that way internally. You lose all motivation in life, what makes you easily smile is crushed into a billion pieces, what wakes you in the morning is no longer appreciation for another day to live with your loved ones, but another day you dread because..well.. waking-up just hurts all of you. Your soul doesn’t feel bruised, it feels like it’s all jumbled-up and no one can take you out of this nasty ‘rut’ you feel.

The sad thing is, it’s all feelings brought up by your mental thoughts. You say, do affirmations, think positive, but it’s not that easy. Your mind, it takes charge, and it takes over every bit of you and controls you from your emotions. It’s on over drive.

 

“Days, weeks, a month has gone by and this ‘thing’ of a feeling has you on a choke-hold, barely allowing you to breathe, and you’ve accepted that drowning is easier than trying to save yourself. It’s all too hard to.”

 

 

 

MM, out!

Author: mommyingmaars

Maria, author of Imommy blog. Maria has three children, Apollo (8), Artemis (2), and Cassiopeia (1). She is due to marry her best friend July 2017. Maria used to be a Registered Early Childhood Educator, before having her second child. She is now a SAHM, that is not paid for wearing many other professional hats. She is, and not limited to some of these professional positions: Doctor, Nurse, Nanny, Chef, Maid, Uber Driver, and so on.. When she isn't mothering or tending to all her other unlicensed professional positions, she loves writing and dancing. She is a previous ballroom and latin competitor. Some of her favourite "stuff" are, turtles/turtoises, the colour green (lime - forest), Laneige's Sleeping mask, make-up, and eating (food is her most favourite self-care aspect). Maria is also currently writing a book on her autobiography, which has been ongoing for the last few years, she's certain she'll eventually finish if she could just get over the hump of emotions attached to exploring oneself. As you read Maria's blogs, you'll get a feel of the true individual that she is, which can sometimes be a fine line of crazy and sweet, but not too sweet. Maria hopes you'll enjoy her blog as she does talking in her head to herself as her fingers skim through the letters on her keyboard. A message from Maria; I do not intend to use my writing to impose or tell you how motherhood should be done. I am no pro at this, and find as I share my wisdom from my experiences, that it shall uncover parts of your heart that find it relatable. My posts aren't always consistent in writing, but it is meant for you to to take in as it is. Find it humurous, sad, lonely, or helpful. Whatever it is you take from it, it only means one thing.. that I have found a place in your mind for those few minutes you dedicated to reading my crap. Thank you for being here, for giving me the chance to share my thoughts. Please return, and remember all written materials and photos on this site, is not to be taken without permission. xo, MM

19 thoughts on “Does Taking a Mental Health Day help for Individuals With PPD & PPA? ”

  1. Congratulations on your marriage. You always have so many things happening at once and you amaze me at how you do it all. I understand the depression days, where you cant get out of your own way, where the motivation isn’t there and how it lasts for a day, or days or weeks. Taking a day off to try and regroup is always a good idea. Even a Mom without PPD needs a break. Adding PPD to everything else going on in a busy Mom’s life is overwhelming. Keep doing what you are doing Mama, you are amazing. It is wonderful to have you joining us again in the All for Mamas Link Party Week 11 #alllformamas. I will share your post on the All for Mamas Facebook group page, on my Facebook Page Blended Life Happy wife, twitter, pinterest and google + – Stephenie/Blended Life Happy Wife

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  2. Great view on this! I think taking a break and having a mental health day is so important and we need to take care of ourselves so we can bring out the best in ourselves!

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  3. sometimes even the smallest things seem overwhelming let alone raising three children! Don’t give up on the blogging world, you have a lot of support and friends here if and when you need them 🙂

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  4. The human mind is an amazing thing but it oh so often takes off on its own down the rabbit hole of self doubt and negative self talk leading us into depression and anxiety and in desperate need of a mental health day! it sounds like you well and truly had a busy time but the wedding looks beautiful so congratulations and keep moving mama, you got this #allformamas

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  5. you are a strong woman, I can vouch on..Continue the spirits and you’ll rock. We all have similar situations handling motherhood and other chores of house and office. It indeed is a tedious task!
    You look beautiful in marriage ensemble!

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  6. More Power to you Moma, We all are ina phase where something or the other is increasing stress in our lives. Lets just find a positive way out. Lots of love and good wishes to you.

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  7. Thank you for taking a moment to share with us what is going on with your life. You can do it Mama & like you mentioned, it can be so tough & difficult sometimes. Take that day off because you deserve it! Keep up the great writing 🙂

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  8. What a strong woman you are to handle everything like you have been doing and then having the strength to be open about it. That takes guts and it’s great that you can openly recognize it and therefore start to deal with it on a long term basis. In the meanwhile it is so good that other great things are happening for you, a brand new marriage and a new, more manageable home…fantastic moves in the right direction for happiness. Best wishes to you.

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  9. You have had a lot on your plate! Sometimes a mental health day is not enough. But we have to keep plugging through, and that gets frustrating sometimes.

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  10. I’m definitely sending you good vibes and keeping you in my thoughts! It must be really hard for you to deal with! All the best and you will make it through love!

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  11. You had a lot going on! I can’t imagine how difficult it was to take care of three children alone. You’re very strong! And congrats on the wedding!

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