Say too much, but none of it says anything

I don’t know if this is true of all Taurus’ signs, but apparently taurus’ tend to isolate themselves.

I relate to this. I’m not sure if thats due to the way my lifestyle is at the moment, but I find so much truth to that.

When Apollo was born, it was like a hermit was born of me. I didn’t want to be around people. I didn’t want to take Apollo out, afraid of sicknesses, and germs. I hated that other family members, wanted to be selfish about him too–he is MY son. 

J, and I never went out. We didn’t go out with our friends. We didn’t go on dates anymore, and if we did, we went out as a family. I don’t think it was that we didn’t want to go out with our friends because, they visited. I think it was more, we were uncertain if that was an acceptable thing to do even after you have kids. We assume, or at least I did, that your time, becomes dedicated to that little human you made. Everything surrounds his world, and not the other way around. 

Five and a half years later, Artemis came to be. Still we find ourselves, just, US. So much has drifted, and not just time. Friends, people have come, and gone. Even the ones I was so certain would stick it out have selfishly passed. Not everyone can tolerate friends with children, at least not all single people.

Perhaps, it isn’t that I’ve chosen to isolate myself, or that my life changing lifestyle is the reason. Perhaps, I’m just not accepting of people coming, and going. Perhaps, I just don’t want to keep losing people, and having to keep going through the same motion, the same emotion. I’m really not big on the feels. As much as I can share my thoughts through words, it’s as much feelings as I can express.

I’m a romantic, like that. 

TIME, definitely opens up truth in your life- about all aspects, really.

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Author: mommyingmaars

Maria, author of Imommy blog. Maria has three children, Apollo (8), Artemis (2), and Cassiopeia (1). She is due to marry her best friend July 2017. Maria used to be a Registered Early Childhood Educator, before having her second child. She is now a SAHM, that is not paid for wearing many other professional hats. She is, and not limited to some of these professional positions: Doctor, Nurse, Nanny, Chef, Maid, Uber Driver, and so on.. When she isn't mothering or tending to all her other unlicensed professional positions, she loves writing and dancing. She is a previous ballroom and latin competitor. Some of her favourite "stuff" are, turtles/turtoises, the colour green (lime - forest), Laneige's Sleeping mask, make-up, and eating (food is her most favourite self-care aspect). Maria is also currently writing a book on her autobiography, which has been ongoing for the last few years, she's certain she'll eventually finish if she could just get over the hump of emotions attached to exploring oneself. As you read Maria's blogs, you'll get a feel of the true individual that she is, which can sometimes be a fine line of crazy and sweet, but not too sweet. Maria hopes you'll enjoy her blog as she does talking in her head to herself as her fingers skim through the letters on her keyboard. A message from Maria; I do not intend to use my writing to impose or tell you how motherhood should be done. I am no pro at this, and find as I share my wisdom from my experiences, that it shall uncover parts of your heart that find it relatable. My posts aren't always consistent in writing, but it is meant for you to to take in as it is. Find it humurous, sad, lonely, or helpful. Whatever it is you take from it, it only means one thing.. that I have found a place in your mind for those few minutes you dedicated to reading my crap. Thank you for being here, for giving me the chance to share my thoughts. Please return, and remember all written materials and photos on this site, is not to be taken without permission. xo, MM

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